i think i lost myself a bit this month. following the unemployment and the house arrest for H1N1 - though i prefer to call it the Selesema Babi. (bukan i kena selesema babi tapi terpaksa duduk rumah sebab tak nak infected - sebab itu Islam mengharamkan babi, sebab babi kotor).
this morning i couldnt sleep after the sahur so i went into my old room and went to look around. i saw my trophies on the rack, my photo albums. took one in hand and was leafing through it when i realised - i was such a happy person back then in high school. very happy person indeed. so what just happened to that happy girl smiling back at me from the pictures?
right there and then, i decided, i have been the moody useless person enough for a month. and it did nothing to make me feel better. only adds a few visible lines on my forehead. (yes, i spend almost all the time looking into that magical reflective surface).
no more mood swings. no more sadness. patiently wait for those interviews. because nobody knows what the future can offer you. i can only cross my fingers, and pray for the best.
even if the future is uncertain, there's no use wasting the tick-tocks with all the frowning.
right? :D
owh..kaki moody jugak la ni....
ReplyDeletep/s : er..hi u back! hahaha..