okay. it might sound redundant to post blog twice a day. unless if you're phone blogging. but i have been having trouble to sleep lately. even though i feel like im tired, the room is dark, the air conditioning is on, its dead quiet, and its already 2am, but i cant seem to have the sleep i yearn for. most of the time i would text someone asking what are they doing. if they're still up, then i end up asking them why are they still up.
gibberish.
and it sucks having to drift back into sleep again and again since 8am. i can wake up at 8am but what the hell am i going to do for the rest of the day? and so automatically my body chose to go back to sleep - again. and when i feel like getting up already, its 12 sharp.
i know. all the sighing wont do any good. but what else can i do? i am looking for a job. waiting for interviews. dad wouldnt let me work. at least not as an Elianto sales representative/beauty consultant. because it means he'll have to send and pick me up from work everyday. so instead of having to listen to his lectures, i'd save my ears and just stayed at home.
there are other things that's been bugging me right now but i think its a bit too personal for me to include here. only closest and dearest friends could understand the situation right now. and yes, they listen to you. but in the end of the day after they sign off to go to bed, i find myself alone again looking at a blank screen with a blinking cursor.
not that i dont trust anyone to sink their teeth into my secrets/problems. but i have had enough of backstabbers in my life. im a bitch. i know that. but i never even once bitch about you. i bitch about myself. i go out and do crazy stuffs which has got nothing to do about you. but why you still want to bitch about me? even if its just a small blab, still, you're a blabber. and dont forget, blabbers burn in hell longer than bitches do.
because i will never forgive you.
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